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Literature
Unsure of what to do
I don't know what to do with myself,
Feeling useless and far too empty inside,
Emptiness which I can't fill,
Uselessness that I can't solve,
Or at least not by myself,
What's the point of trying to do anything?
I know that's not true,
There is a point, a reason, a purpose,
Something must be done,
I just don't know what to do,
Not quite yet.
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Literature
Concealed
I wonder how many people,
Seem happy on the outside,
But feel pain on the inside,
Who smile when they want to cry,
Laugh when they want to scream,
Sadness unnoticed, unseen,
Suffering in silence,
Concealed deep within,
Because no one will understand,
Or other people have their own problems,
Why bother them with yours?
Why increase their burden?
That won't help them,
Or maybe the fear,
Of being called an attention seeker,
Stops them from reaching out,
Maybe it's easier just to conceal,
All the pain inside.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 2 4
Literature
Peaceful paradise
An undisturbed paradise,
A bubble of peace and quiet,
Simple but yours,
So calm with no distractions,
A space created solely for you,
To come and go as you please,
Where the weight of the world,
Just lifts off your shoulders,
Leaving you free and without a care,
If only such a place existed.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 2 2
Literature
Sadness with no reason
A heavy heart,
And sad soul,
Sometimes for no reason at all,
Other than feeling lonely,
An ache in my chest,
And eyes that want to cry,
But I don't want them to,
It's hard to keep it all inside,
To stop the tears' gentle fall,
And I don't know why,
Sadness and loneliness lurk in my heart,
So I can't make it better,
No matter how hard I try.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 2 4
Literature
Nothing
No one wants to be worth nothing,
To have no value in the world,
No value in yourself,
To be replaceable, unnoticed,
Unimportant, invisible,
No one wants this, not truly,
To be considered empty,
Or to at least feel that way,
Like a hollow china doll,
Waiting to be cracked open,
Lifeless and ignored, worthless,
Hard to remember that everyone has a value,
All life is important,
Including your own,
Asking yourself what's the point?
If you're nothing.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 8 9
Literature
Stars in their eyes
Their eyes contain a whole galaxy of stars,
You can see your whole world in them,
Lighting up when they see you,
A familiar twinkle in their eye,
Their smile is like the sun,
You can't imagine life without it,
It's warm and welcoming,
Just a mere glimpse of it brightens up your day,
Their speech is beautiful and kind,
Like a colourful rainbow,
Giving you hope after rain,
Comfort and love after the storm.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 15 10
Literature
Hiding in shadows
Harsh light so bright,
It burns your eyes,
The shadows are safe,
Quiet and undisturbed
Cool and calm,
Take shelter there,
Hide from the brightness of the day,
Bide your time until night falls,
Friendly and inviting,
Then be free,
And embrace the darkness.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 7 10
Literature
Love IV
Love should be free,
Like a gentle breeze,
Or the flow of a river,
Natural and content,
Love which lasts and is true,
Is not tied to any rules or requirements,
The heart can not be bound by these things,
It will not listen to them,
Nor will it be restricted by them,
This is how love should be,
How it must be to truly please the heart.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 5 2
Literature
Fortune telling
Palms are read,
Four lines of different lengths,
Love, life, fortune, child,
Your future,
All in the palm of your hand,
A simple child's game,
Skipping until you trip up,
Who will you marry?
Rich man, poor man, thief,
Where will you live?
Mansion, flat, cardboard box,
The fortune teller knows all,
Shroud in mystery,
Look into the crystal ball,
What glimpse will you catch,
Of the road ahead?
Tarot cards spread on a table,
Which card will you draw?
The tower, the fool,
The hanged man, death?
Make sure you choose wisely,
So many ways of predicting the unknown,
Because the future is feared,
And no one likes the surprise,
Of what it can bring.
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Eyes by sugarbluebell Eyes :iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 4 5
Literature
Time III
Time is a strange and mysterious thing,
It flows around everyone and everything constantly,
Sometimes it moves slowly,
Like the rhythmic dripping of a leaky tap,
Other times it is fast,
Like a roaring and rushing river,
Invisible, untouchable,
But still there,
We are all caught up in its flow,
With no way to avoid or control it,
We give time its meaning, its name,
Yet still it governs us,
We create the illusion of visible time,
Through cogs and gears that turn in unison,
And hands that tick across a numbered face,
The whole world understands this,
It dominates and dictates the lives of all,
As the whole world runs on the idea of time passing by.
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Literature
Clouds
With just a little day dreaming,
As you gaze up at the sky,
Clouds can turn into many things,
They twist into strange shapes,
As they drift lazily across the sky,
They can become castles,
Or animals big and small,
Or strange creatures that don't exist,
They can take the shape of your dreams,
Your hopes and desires,
If you look at them carefully enough,
With your mind and eyes open,
Imagination drifting up with the clouds.
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Literature
Fallen
I've stumbled and fallen,
Tripped over my own feet,
Needing someone to help me,
To pick me up again,
Or to at least motivate me,
To pick myself up,
And dust myself off,
So I can continue moving forward,
Without fear of falling again.
:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell
:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 5 3
Literature
Missing
Something is missing,
Something important and special,
An empty space that needs to be filled,
In my soul and my heart,
Vacant and lonely for so long,
Nothing seems to fit,
I try to fill it with other things,
But they're a poor substitute,
For the love which only someone else can give,
To fill the unoccupied place in my heart.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 5 5
Literature
Mouth shut
Most conversations end with regret,
Something I could have said,
Or shouldn't have,
But I'm never sure,
Maybe it's best to keep my mouth shut altogether,
Lips sealed tightly,
Zipped closed or stitched up,
It might be easier that way,
I don't have much to say in the first place,
And I don't know how to say it,
With a voice that seems barely more than a whisper,
Does anyone want to listen anyway?
:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell
:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 6 11
Literature
Eyes II
Eyes are unique and special,
But are sometimes unappreciated,
Some are cold and unfriendly,
Like shards of ice,
Others are warm and bright,
Lit with a flame of excitement,
Some appear innocent,
Filled with a child like curiosity,
Some are calm, wise and understanding,
Great knowledge hidden in their depths,
They can be as green as grass,
Bluer than the ocean or sky,
Or a gentle chocolate brown,
And every shade in between,
Each pair as unique as their owner.
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:iconsugarbluebell:sugarbluebell 7 5

Favourites

Trapped - Part 2 by Webmegami Trapped - Part 2 :iconwebmegami:Webmegami 13 5 Trapped - Part 1 by Webmegami Trapped - Part 1 :iconwebmegami:Webmegami 25 11 Ghirahim by Satori-Yua Ghirahim :iconsatori-yua:Satori-Yua 6 0 Beware of Hitchhiking Poes by AceNos Beware of Hitchhiking Poes :iconacenos:AceNos 16 1 Til death do we part by AceNos Til death do we part :iconacenos:AceNos 9 3
Literature
Soaring - Poem
I'd gladly give away these wings to have your hand in mine
I'd happily remain on the ground; by your side for a lifetime
I wouldn't get the urge to fly
Or need to feel the wind 'neath my feathers
I'd never need to taste the sky
If I could only stay with you; forever
For in place of flight; my heart would leap
And the two of us would frolic and play
And when sun set we would fall asleep
All tired out from our long day
I'd hold you close and kiss your cheek
And from that moment 'til forevermore
Instead of sky; the look of love in your eyes
Would be all that I needed to soar
:iconShimmeringDewdrops:ShimmeringDewdrops
:iconshimmeringdewdrops:ShimmeringDewdrops 11 5
Cafe Baes by Sageoftwilight56 Cafe Baes :iconsageoftwilight56:Sageoftwilight56 6 0 Shark and a soap bubble by mehjustlera Shark and a soap bubble :iconmehjustlera:mehjustlera 8 2 Thankful for Friendship by Yesterdays-Paper Thankful for Friendship :iconyesterdays-paper:Yesterdays-Paper 11 3
Literature
light prompt 92
storm coming
edge of the sky
darkens
go inside
and lock the door
up tight
into bed
under covers
just right
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Literature
The beginning is simple
A sentence
A wild stroke
A strike against marble
These
Are the beginning
Of art
Nothing grand
Or amazing
Simple
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Literature
Possibility Lacking Probability
Born of a breath held, 
but never released 
she was only a moment of hesitation, 
of thought. She became the personification
of silence drawn thin. Embraced
by a moment
briefer than any before, 
to be ever restrained.
Created in a second 
she was cursed to eternally traverse
an unspoken ponderance. 
She was a moment of thought,
a single pause of possibility, 
and then she was nothing.
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Literature
Why?
Why can’t you just let me finally fall down?
Why can’t you just let me flounder and drown?
Why can’t you let me sink below the surface
Into my Blue sea of agony and disgrace?
Why do I matter so fucking much?
Why would my escape hurt you such
To the point where you shackle me here?
Why is it that my feelings aren’t clear?
Why do you want to torture me
Beyond the edge of my sanity?
Why do you hold on so damn tight?
Why can’t you let me lose my fight?
I’m already dead and empty,
Why are you too blind to see?
Why don’t you let me know
Why you can’t just let me go?
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Literature
Dead and Broken
Looking for ways to start again,
Looking for ways to end the pain,
Looking for ways to find and restart
My broken, pitiful excuse of a heart…
Running out of reasons to keep on going,
Running out of reasons to keep on living,
Running out of reasons to keep on running
From the end that I know is coming…
I stopped trying to escape the pain I feel,
I stopped trying to find ways to heal
The wounds inside my heart and soul,
I stopped trying to become whole…
Letting the pain finally consume me,
Letting the last dregs of happiness flee,
Letting the voices almost take over my head
Because on the inside, I’m already dead…
Turning to face my demons,
Turning Black, the Blue within,
Turning my perspective around,
Now loving the voices and their sound.
Losing whatever makes me whole,
Losing my mind and my twisted soul,
Losing what had made me human,
Something inside has snapped and broken...
:iconZeroSanity2713:ZeroSanity2713
:iconzerosanity2713:ZeroSanity2713 9 5
Literature
Rollercoaster
Life is a rollercoaster but I’m stuck
At the bottom, out of power and out of luck.
Waiting for a hero to come and save me,
But it seems the Blue is my destiny…
The track starts to rust and rot,
Taking away all that I’ve got
To hold me off the rocky bottom below,
Off the Hell that I will soon know…
How long before it crashes down around me?
How long before I start to see
The end approaching,
My final reckoning?
:iconZeroSanity2713:ZeroSanity2713
:iconzerosanity2713:ZeroSanity2713 2 3
Literature
Hell Would Be Preferable
I’m paying with pain from deep within….
I’m paying in agony for all my sins…
I’m hurting more than words can tell…
I’m starting to wish I was in Hell…
Stare into the depths of my black soul
As pure agony swallows me whole…
My spirit is burning as if it were coal
As my sins start to take their toll…
I’m clawing at my head,
Trying to let the pain out…
I’m wishing I was dead,
As I silently shout…
Not even the fiery red abyss
Could ever be worse than this…
Not even the depths of Hades
Could beat moments like these…
:iconZeroSanity2713:ZeroSanity2713
:iconzerosanity2713:ZeroSanity2713 3 3

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I don't know what to do with myself,
Feeling useless and far too empty inside,
Emptiness which I can't fill,
Uselessness that I can't solve,
Or at least not by myself,
What's the point of trying to do anything?
I know that's not true,
There is a point, a reason, a purpose,
Something must be done,
I just don't know what to do,
Not quite yet.
I wonder how many people,
Seem happy on the outside,
But feel pain on the inside,
Who smile when they want to cry,
Laugh when they want to scream,
Sadness unnoticed, unseen,
Suffering in silence,
Concealed deep within,
Because no one will understand,
Or other people have their own problems,
Why bother them with yours?
Why increase their burden?
That won't help them,
Or maybe the fear,
Of being called an attention seeker,
Stops them from reaching out,
Maybe it's easier just to conceal,
All the pain inside.
An undisturbed paradise,
A bubble of peace and quiet,
Simple but yours,
So calm with no distractions,
A space created solely for you,
To come and go as you please,
Where the weight of the world,
Just lifts off your shoulders,
Leaving you free and without a care,
If only such a place existed.
A heavy heart,
And sad soul,
Sometimes for no reason at all,
Other than feeling lonely,
An ache in my chest,
And eyes that want to cry,
But I don't want them to,
It's hard to keep it all inside,
To stop the tears' gentle fall,
And I don't know why,
Sadness and loneliness lurk in my heart,
So I can't make it better,
No matter how hard I try.
I've never written a journal before but i'm feeling a little depressed so i thought that it might make me feel a bit better. I don't even have a real reason to be depressed, apart from feeling  sort of alone. No-one cares anyway so it doesn't really matter. I probably sound sorry for my self, which is annoying because I don't like feeling sorry for myself, it makes me feel like i'm being selfish. I'm sorry if i do sound sorry for myself and if its annoying

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